It's has been forever since I updated the last entry. The last entry was published a year ago like literally a year ago. Okay let's get into the point. Lately I keep thinking about a lot of things like I don't why. I become a little depress. My mood always not good. I don't why. I lose my confident to share my problems or concern with anyone like I used to.
Since this is my first entry for this year. I thought I could share with you my concern and problems. Okay so not long ago, a lecturer came to our school to teach us the easiest way to answer the bm paper. It's was fun because I always not looking forward for bm classes like I would become super tired and sleepy in bm class. But the lecturer really funny and the way he taught us makes us feel like bm is really easy (not that easy tho but you get the point). So he invited us to his university so that he can teach us more about bm. But we need to pay. And it's really expensive. seriously expensive for just one day class. So I go home and asked my mom if I could go cause really looking forward to the class. Along with my friends, they were really excited, But we managed to pay the deposit on the next day. So we have about 3 weeks before the seminar.
So here comes my concern. My bm and history teacher not encourage us to go to the seminar because she said it she don't trust the lecturer. She afraid that they will brainwashed us and told us that everything in bm and history spm paper is change (which is not). Most of my friends like 90% of them decided that they don't want to go because it's such a waste of money. Left me alone from my class that will go to the seminar. I'm alone but I don't care because I'm the one who will sit for the spm not the teachers. It's one of my effort. But what make me sad is how they told me that the seminar is waste of money because they rather spend that a lot of money on something else than attend the seminar. I was like what the hell? How I'm supposed to tell my mom if I don't want to go like "Mom I don't want to go because it's waste of money". How do you expect my mom would answer? Like "Yeah sure it's fine"? Hell no! Of course she would get mad. She already paid for deposit and all of sudden I don't want to go because it's waste of money. I'm not from a wealthy family. I'm not saying that we are poor but in my country I'm miskin bandar because I live in a big city.
My opinion is if you think the seminar is waste of money, then it's will really waste your money. If you think positive, and think that you go to the seminar because you want to gain knowledge and become better in bm and history you will never thought that the seminar is waste of money. And trust me whenever they ask me about the seminar I will tell them "well it's actually not fair because I'm the one who paid for the whole seminar, I'm the one who attend the seminar. I'm the one who think the seminar is not waste of money. And You're the one who think the seminar is waste of money so why should you bother?"
Fact about me. I hate people who always lie. I'm not a lie detector but I know when someone is lying. Like it's so obvious. Try to make up a false story about 5sos and expect me to trust you? Try to make up any reason why you could not come and expect me to trust you? Tbh I trust people easily and hardly for me to lie to someone. I really hate people who lie to me like I can't accept it. I trust you and I hardly ever lie to you and you lie to me makes me really hate you. Even a small lie to make your story more interesting will make me hate you even more. So moral of the story, don't lie. It's easy.
I'm trying my best writing this in english so excuse me if I have grammar issues.
